The Journey of the High Priestess

The high priestess....that’s the card I was given to write about. There’s a lot going on here in this card, and the symbolism is stunning, once you understand it. The color choices are dark, with only the moon illuminated. This means a withdrawn introspection, deep emotion is going on. The moon is a beacon lighting the way. It’s passing through its phases showing everything is cyclical, nothing is random and there’s a divine plan. Her face is lifted, her gaze on the fullest moon showing an eye for the future, and growth.

I can’t think of a card that could be more perfect for what I’m experiencing right now. In fact, it’s deeply personal so forgive me if I leave out chunks here and there. (This is a very intense card for me.) My life is so different from what it was a year ago and lately, as autumn arrives, I feel a spiritual jolt. It’s like a rearranging of everything I believed to be true re-ordered in an eye opening way that’s startling and a little bit fear inducing.

Autumn has ALWAYS been a very special time for me, and this has changed to also become a very magickal and spiritual time for me. Something within me has unlocked. First it was cracked with the soul wrenching pain of losing a child—I see that in this card, do you? The grief that has settled around her, I feel it sometimes like water—salty tears running down my cheeks, and sometimes it’s a thick syrup that holds me and traps me, but still other times it’s a light mist, barely noticeable, but still present. They say trauma can do many things, like turn your hair gray overnight. Some say it can open up special gifts of the spirit, something an angel might leave with you to ease the pain.

The cracks spread and grew wider. The lid has been lifted just “enough” for me to know that there’s more coming. A new phase of my life’s journey is beginning. I feel a deeper connection to the earth, both things seen and unseen. Every day there’s a new thought about something I’ve always believed to be ordinary, is actually magick hidden in plain sight.

I began by doing tarot for myself. Without much instruction, I bought my decks and I began my journey with them. In a very short time, the cards became new friends with a desire to be shared with others. I began connecting more deeply into the stories they told, and slowly started reading for people in my circle. Now I read regularly for people I know and ones I’ve never met. It brings me joy to do this because it’s part of my journey. This is something I’m meant to do.

I know there’s more coming. There’s always more to learn and more to share. The path I take now has always been there, it’s just recently been revealed. Like when the wind blows the leaves off the sidewalk....it’s always been there, only it was hidden until I was ready. I’m taking on more meditation, expanding my Reiki skills, and working within myself to fulfill my spiritual needs. This may sound crazy, but my heart longs to understand the trees—they sing and they whisper, but I can’t yet understand them. I love watching all things in nature because it’s like these creatures know things and want to share...but we don’t know how to listen. I’m really trying to listen!!

This high priestess card is representative of this journey I’m on. It’s a lonely one because it has to be. There’s no good way to do what I need to do in a classroom, or even a small group. Fortunately at my present stage of life I only have time. My children are grown, it’s my turn to take care of me now. Perhaps this is why everything had to wait? Maybe. But the loss of my son propelled me forward to this world I never knew existed. He introduced me to a medium. He opened the door to the spirit world in a way that awakened a part of me that’s been asleep for most of my life. I’m ready to learn, and my heart is ready to grow beyond the pain it knows now. I can lift my head towards the fullness of the moon and know that the future for me is just as big and full as I could ever dream it could be. The brightness will light the way...I only need to follow. I only need to trust that everything is happening exactly as it’s meant to.

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