A Chariot Awaits

The Chariot, a welcome sight, signaling to me that a new adventure awaits. When this card pops up it generally means a hopeful, energetic, hold nothing back leap into the unknown. It’s exciting, it’s a choice you’ve made and maybe you’ve been planning for it. There are risks involved, but you’ve made the calculated decision to just go with it because the outcome is expected to be worthwhile.

Every year, about this time frame, I get sick of summer. It seems like the heat and humidity have been hanging on me for years instead of months and I’m OVER IT! Just around the corner is my most favorite time of year. You know the season I mean...HallowGivingMas.

I can feel that change is in the air. The leaves are just beginning to turn on the trees I see around my house. The birds have molted and are growing in their winter feathers, a less colorful palette; and Starbucks has announced the arrival of pumpkin spice! But let’s not get too crazy, it’s still pretty warm outside.

Labor Day weekend is traditionally the end of real summer for everyone connected to school children. Many have already returned and look forward to the break while others dread the holiday knowing the golden days of carefree afternoons are over. There’s a long stretch of school before the next holiday breaks in November.

As a parent, I lived for September. By this point all of us are on a fairly regular routine with a balance of school, work, and play. Everyone knows what’s expected, everyone participates in day to day maintenance. There’s a time for everything, and there’s comfort in that regularity. I’m one of those people that likes structure, and the looseness of summer is never comfortable for me.

Now, all of my children live away. Summer for me is just really long stretches of hot weather with periods of varying tolerability. I hate being sweaty, especially when it’s not related to exercise. I’ve lived in places with summer temperatures approaching a dry 120F, but also a muggy 95F, the kind of day you need gills for. I know all shades of summer and I’ll tell you this, I’m not a fan. I get through it only because I know fall is coming, and without summer there’d be no leaves to change.

This leads me back to the chariot which in my case is the herald of MANY changes coming my way. My spiritual journey is picking up speed and exciting opportunities are popping up. I’m packing up and moving to a new state due to a job opportunity for my spouse. Most importantly, Autumn (and all the magick it brings) will be here.

There are some sadder milestones as well. Brandon will celebrate his first birthday in heaven next month. He would have been 22. We are celebrating with a newly invented holiday called BRANDON DAY which involves eating taco bell. Then right after Halloween we will put up our first day of the dead altar, with my own witchy spin. I’ll write about that another time. In December, it will be the first anniversary of his death. In between all of this my family and friends will be participating in out of darkness walks around the country, promoting suicide awareness in memory of Brandon. (Eventually I will have shirts available for purchase, supporting the BHawk Sloth Racing Team with all proceeds going into the out of darkness organization. Check back next month for more details.)

I welcome the arrival and departure of this chariot into golden skies. There’s some uncertainty ahead, but there’s a great deal more potential of great things. I’ll take this leap, and ride this out knowing I’m not alone. Instead of waiting for change this time, I’m creating it...it’s my choice. I’m trusting my guide’s voice, and I’m believing in the fact that I’ve been equipped for success. I’m ready now.

I leave you with this thought. Everything has a reason. There’s no randomness or coincidence.

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For more information on the out of darkness walk or to find one in your area:

Afsp.org